We’ve all heard of MGTOW, that movement typified largely by socially awkward men with little game, who having repeatedly failed to secure the attentions of a woman of even average quality, have in a childish fit of petulance exclaimed “Well I never wanted them anyway!”, convincing no-one except themselves in the process.

Ironically however, there is wisdom is their approach. Every man should in fact strive to be a “man going his own way”. Your life mission should be your primary focus, women a welcome addition but not a necessity.

By concentrating entirely on your aims and goals and gaining validation therein, you stop needing women to feel good about yourself, and start being self-affirmed. And when you stop needing women, that’s when you can get as many as you want.

There’s a caveat however, and this is where the MGTOW go wrong in the main part – they carry with them a heart full of bitterness and resentment towards women, for all the times their “best friend” game was rejected, for all the times they were passed over in favour of the jerk, even though “they know they’re better than him”.

“Going your own way” is only attractive to women when you’ve already got a handle on game, social dynamics and female socio-sexual psychology, and you’ve got some good reference experiences behind you of getting with some decent quality girls.

Quitting a game because you are losing is the worst kind of sportsmanship. Retiring near the top of your game to pursue more rewarding options is an entirely different kettle of fish.


Thoughts on Kratom

After seeing Pill Scout post about Kratom, I started writing this as a comment on Victor Pride’s blog entry on the subject, with reference also to what Chris GLL has to say.

All of the “symptoms” of pre-Kratom, especially the ones Chris describes – mild depression, anxiety, unproductive, not as happy as you could be – I also use to suffer from on a daily basis. I now feel exactly the same as Chris says he does when he burns Kratom daily, but without any of the occasional low points. To me, these persistent negative feelings and moods are clear signs of unresolved mental conflict, at a subconscious level.

What did I do to solve it? Cognitive behavioural therapy, or CBT. I know I’ve written about this many times before (here here and here, there are probably more), but it’s a subject close to my heart.

All of the negative mental factors in my life were coming from these unresolved inner conflicts. Ones you don’t even realise are there, because your ego has become so good at deflecting thoughts away from them over the years, at telling yourself the pretty lies you want to hear.

CBT gives you the ability to just learn to accept who you are at a base level, and stop fighting your own nature. When you learn to do that, over time your problems just gradually end up going away by themselves (provided you’ve got good daily habits of course).

I simply cannot stress enough how important it is in life to learn to accept yourself, and accept your own emotions, whatever they may be. Trying to fight or deny your own nature is a guaranteed way to never fix yourself.

I used to beat myself up, mentally berate myself for having approach anxiety. “You stupid pussy, why don’t you just man the fuck up, you’re such a beta faggot, look the opportunity’s gone now, you fucking retard” etc etc (and then the ego would swoop in with the pretty lies – “she wasn’t that hot anyway, you could have got here if you wanted to, you’re still the man”).

CBT taught me to just accept things as they were. Recognise and accept my emotions, but to not allow them to rule me. The hardest thing I ever had to do was learn to say to myself “Yes, I am a pussy. Talking to women scares me. That is who I am, and I am ok with that. BUT I will still act anyway, and do the right thing. I will allow this anxiety to exist inside me, I will watch it as a dispassionate observer, but I will focus my attention elsewhere, and it will not rule me.”

I realised my brain had picked up learned thought patterns, which immediately kicked in during times of high stress, setting off negative spirals of thoughts (or rumination as it is known in CBT lingo). I gained the ability to take a step back from my conscious thoughts, and watch these patterns unfolding as if I was a third party. It was actually amusing, after all those years being a victim to my mind, to be able to say “Hah, look, my stupid brain is doing that thought pattern thing again. I will accept it, and let it do its thing, but I will not identify with these thoughts”.

It was Steve Jabba that got me on to the idea initially, and I can only thank him for it, as in the 24 months since I learned how to apply CBT techniques to my own mind, I’ve transformed as a person, become more productive than ever, and found inner peace. Sometimes I just sit, quietly, with a completely blank mind, soaking in the simple joy of existing, present in the moment. It sounds like corny new-age bullshit, but it is a great thing to be able to do. My brain is now just something that I can pick up like a tool when I need to get something done. I use it, and then put it away again, and go back to a completely still mind.

When I first became proficient with CBT, I used to freak myself out with my behaviour. Finally free of my ego running the show, my inner self was free to come out – you know, that part of you that just acts on impulse, and says what it wants, the part that people usually have to use alcohol to sedate their frontal lobes for in order to access.

As a result, it felt like an “autopilot” was running my body. I’d do and say things without conscious thought, just talk to the nearest stranger and say whatever floated up from the recesses of my brain without shame. When it first started to happen, I’d retreat into a state of momentary shock – “Why the fuck did I say that? I didn’t think about saying that before I said it”. The truth of the matter was, I was just taking my first steps into living fully outside of my head, instead of being stuck inside it all of the time.

I’m at a point now where I’ve completely internalised CBT methods. The exercises and methods just happen in the blink of an eye at a subconscious level. However, now and again, I still have a stinker of a day, where my mood is at rock bottom and social anxiety creeps back in (it’s usually when I get up later than 9am – my body clock doesn’t get on with late starts). At these times, I have to go back to consciously applying the techniques that are otherwise 99% of the time automatic. But it still works just the same, and my terrible days are in reality usually no more than just a terrible half a day.

It didn’t come easy. It took a lot of mental discipline to keep applying the techniques every single day, to try and catch myself when I’d start to slip back into old habits. But the mental skills I gained are now with me for the rest of my life. My mood and productivity every single day are entirely in my own hands, and I don’t need to drink Kratom tea to get there.

All power to those who find it highly beneficial, but my own pride would not allow me to rely on using a herb to make me be the kind of person I want to be every single day.

Now it might be the case that if I were to use Kratom on top of how I feel, it would be even better – and I might just try it out of curiosity. Indeed, if you’re the kind of person that is happy 90% of the time anyway, and has got your shit together in life, then what harm could it do.

However, if you are feeling low most days, have social anxiety and low productivity, then I urge you to consider that you’ve got unresolved emotional issues, and look to fix yourself properly, rather than relying on a herbal crutch to get there.



As we approach the end of another year, it’s natural that thoughts turn towards reflection on the year just passed.

This has been the first year since I started full-time employment after university that I have failed to be earning more money than the previous year. A cause for dismay? Taken out of context, perhaps, but in light of the journey I began when I quit full-time work around this time 12 months ago, entirely to be expected. Even if for no other reason, I would still deem this year a success because I’ve learned a lot about how to cope with adverse situations.

Being blessed with a high IQ, a rational mind and strong problem solving skills (if you will excuse the resume-sounding language), I largely breezed through academia, and along a career progression. Most mental challenges I came up against were overcome with little effort – or at the worst occasionally I’d have to sit down and actually use my brain fully for a few weeks – but always succeeding without too much trouble. I was in the position of envisaging where I’d like to get to, in terms of mastering a new domain or skill within a set amount of time, and being able to get there.

That is, until I tried to learn how to trade at a high level.

I spent the first 7 months floundering around, without even finding the relevant information that I needed. Imagine enrolling on a course at college or university, and on your first day, you’re led into a room with 10,000 textbooks. The lecturer tells you “You’re pretty much on your own on this one. Somewhere in all of those textbooks is the single correct one that you’ll need to master this course. The others will contain small pieces of the correct information, but mixed in with a lot more bad advice. You’ll have no way of knowing whether the information you try to apply from the textbook you’ve chosen will work other than extended trial and error over a period of weeks. Even then, you might think that it is the correct information – because it still work occasionally – but not all of the time, leaving you to wonder whether you’ve in fact found the correct information but are just not applying it correctly. You might actually find the correct textbook on day 1, but because of your inability to apply the information correctly to your trial and error process through inexperience, you won’t realise it’s the correct one until you’ve tried many of the others and realised that they’re wrong, and you end up going back to it. Oh and one last thing – you’ll be surrounded by thousands of other people also searching through the textbooks, and all shouting at you that they’ve found the right one already, and that you should go and read theirs.”

That’s pretty much the story of how I eventually ended up with the information I needed after 7 months. My friend, who is also learning to trade, actually found it in the first month, but neither of us realised the significance. Even after it was rediscovered, I (in my typically overconfident manner) only read it partially, and then ran off half-cocked ready to conquer the world, only to have to come back to it 2 months later and read it properly. For hopefully obvious reasons, it’s not really in the best interests of successful traders to scream their secrets from the rooftops with a megaphone. Fortunately for people like me though, there are communities based around traders all working from the same methodology, sharing their progress and helping each other out along the way.

I tweeted recently on my personal account that “The first step of any journey of self-improvement begins with acceptance of where you currently are”. This was a harsh lesson I had to learn first hand. So accustomed was I to quickly mastering new disciplines, that no sooner had I quit work, than I was already imagining how I would spend my first £100k – which would surely be mine within 6 months – without actually acknowledging that I was a total novice, approaching something that 95% or more of people fail at. When reality failed to live up to this expectation, I became extremely frustrated, and combined with a dwindling cash reserve, almost frantic in my efforts to succeed.

You see, trading is a game of patience. You analyse a chart, spot a nice place you think something might happen, and then you wait patiently for things to play out, before making a decision whether to trade or not. Frustration and desperation are not your friends, leading to impatience and poor decisions, only worsening your plight.

As the weeks and months went by, still not finding the success I had assumed would so easily be mine, my mental state deteriorated further and further. The first genuine challenge I’d come across, and I’d crumpled pathetically. What an idiot. What a fool. How could I have thought I would be spending millions of pounds so quickly?

What I’d done is instead of accepting where I currently was in my journey, and focusing only on doing the correct things on a day by day basis, was set myself a large mental expectation of where I’d be at a certain point, without actually having any control over the variables needed to reach that point in the set amount of time.

Let’s say two men set themselves the task of building a 10 metre wall. The first man says to himself “I’m going to nail it, and build the whole thing in 3 weeks!”. The second man says “I understand that building a wall is a big challenge, seeing as I’ve never done it before, so I will just concentrate on laying each brick correctly, one by one, and not concern myself with how quickly it proceeds”. During the course of the next 2 weeks, a number of setbacks occur. Bad weather prevents the men from working every day. Vandals come and knock down parts of the wall, and steal some of the bricks. 2 weeks pass, and both men have achieved a modest wall, a few metres high. The first man, aware that his 3 week self-imposed deadline is fast approaching, becomes more frantic in his working methods, laying each brick haphazardly or not using enough mortar, to save time. The second man, under the constraints of no such self-imposition, merely carries on working slowly and steadily, laying each brick carefully, aware that his wall is growing in size, but unconcerned about when the ultimate goal will be reached.

At the end of the third week, the men take a step back to evaluate their progress. The first man’s wall has collapsed, such was his haste to reach his arbitrary goal. He is inconsolable, and wonders even if it is worth starting again. The second man’s wall is 5 metres high already, strong and sturdy. The second man is pleased with what he has achieved, but does not get too attached. He knows that he may suffer more setbacks, but if he just continues at his pace, laying each brick carefully, his wall will eventually be completed.

Since I relaxed, accepted that I wasn’t where I thought I would be by this time and that it may take a lot longer than I thought, and merely started concentrating on just doing the right thing to progress, day by day, and waiting patiently for my goal, my trading has improved immeasurably. I’ve made more progress in a month than in the preceding 8 combined. Now, each failed trade is simply a lesson to be learned, a dispassionate realisation that a nuance of my method was incorrect – whereas before, it was a crushing defeat, a humiliating slap in the face, a stinging failure to be where I expected that I should be, a cause for denial of my situation.

Whatever you’re working towards – improving your physique, building your own business, mastering a new complex discipline, increasing your social skills and self-confidence – it pays to not set yourself unrealistic expectations of where you want to be at a given point in time. The achievement is made when it is made, no sooner, no later. Provided you are approaching the problem in the correct manner (breaking it down to its foundational elements, in possession of the correct information – indeed, this could be the subject of a post in itself), then if you just keep chipping away day by day, with no prior expectations of when you think you will reach your goal, it is a simple inevitability that you will get there sooner or later.

Expectations lead to disappointment. Things are what they are, and the sooner you learn to accept that fact, the happier you will be.

Dark Triad

Dark Triad

As I’m sure almost all of us who frequent this corner of the internet are aware, the term “Dark Triad” refers to the three personality traits of narcissism, psychopathy, and Machiavellianism, which are considered to be “dark” for the generally emotionally destructive tendencies they engender in those who possess them. I won’t go into the details of each one here, since I assume they’re well known.

As I’m also sure anyone who has done even perfunctory amounts of reading of the manosphere is aware, these personality traits are inherently attractive to a lot of women. Is this because women like self-obsessed, manipulative unfeeling assholes? Not directly. Rather it is what people possessing these traits are subcommunicating about themselves that trip off the evolutionary attraction switches.

Self-obsessed? Then you care more about yourself than any woman, and will always try to get your own way. Women subconsciously reason that only a man of options could get away with behaving like this. High value communicated. Manipulative? You have no qualms in using devious or underhand tactics to control situations and people to your own ends. The likelihood of coercing women into liking is therefore you massively increased. Borderline psychopathic? The very definition of emotionally unreactive. Women see this, and come to the subconscious conclusion that you must be a man of many options with extremely high social value in order to care so little. High value communicated. Once high value has been established in this manner, the fear of losing you fires up the hamster of dread  in the back of her mind, and she’s yours.

Heartiste in particular has long been a proponent of dark triad personality traits, triumphantly posting the latest scientific literature confirming their attractiveness to women.

The allure is strong. Behave like an entitled jerk, and still get women? “Great!” you think, “I will start acting like a self-obsessed, manipulative asshole immediately.” Not so fast, I caution, for a few reasons.

First, people with these personality traits have developed them from early childhood. They are part of who they are at a fundamental level. You cannot simply decide you want to “adopt” a certain personality trait one day as a grown adult, and expect it to work. You will come off as socially incongruent, and most likely end up repulsing any except the most socially unintelligent women. Never forget, those people who are socially adept – either men who are “naturals” or those that have mastered their own minds through self-improvement, or a large number of women who are evolutionarily programmed to be inherently more socially aware than men – can see straight through your fakery in the blink of an eye. You may be talking the talk, and even adopting one or two of the more obvious body language cues; but the other 10,000 physical micro-cues your facial expression, tonality, eye contact and posture are giving away completely betray you.

Additionally, trying to act in a manner that is out of accord with who you are at a base level for prolonged periods of time will cause mental dissonance and anguish. The only way to truly change core elements of your personality is through a prolonged period of organic growth, reinforced with a firm set of supporting habitual behaviours that you adopt over time.

Secondly, those people possessing some large measure of dark triad personality traits are generally not very happy people. The very essence of psychopathy means you cannot feel love. To be truly narcissistic means to never really know mental peace. To darkly manipulate others means repeatedly putting stains upon your soul. Which brings me on to my third point.

I want to be able to look myself in the eye in the mirror and not be ashamed of any part of my behaviour. I want to know that I always tried my utmost to act in a respectable, honourable fashion. To my mind, this is a central tenet of being a man. This I could not do if I knew that I deliberately and maliciously inflicted emotional anguish upon a woman just to hold her in my thrall. These are the actions of a low value individual.

What then if there was a way to achieve your goal of being highly attractive to women, without having to resort to these tactics? Fortunately there is. Remember that women are not directly attracted to dark triad personality traits, but rather to the illusion of high value that they convey (and indeed, is it usually nothing more than an illusion).

Being focused on your overarching life goal above all else, whilst working tirelessly to raise and maintain your value through dedication to optimising your physique, aesthetic, mind, social skills and wealth, should be tenets central to any self-respecting man’s life. They are also qualities which by definition mean that no one woman ever becomes the sole focus of your life. Indeed, women in general begin to take a back seat when you fully begin to experience the joys of genuine self-improvement, and the corresponding leaps in confidence that come with it. Women are naturally drawn and attracted to you, simply because at a very base level, you do not need them.

In this manner, through the adoption of this life philosophy, you may be viewed as extremely attractive towards the opposite sex, whilst at the same time being fully assured that you are acting in a decent, principled and honourable manner. You also get the added bonus of massively improving the quality of your life, brimming with self-confidence in the knowledge you earned the level you are at through hard work, and able to savour the peace of mind that comes with it.

There are those of course who simply do not want to put the time and effort into trying to improve themselves. They just want the quick fix, the magic bullet. There is a word for this type of person – the “majority”. These are the people who will simply try to adopt forced personality traits which are not their own in order to pursue their shallow aims, merely increasing their own level of unhappiness in the process, whilst earning the contempt of those high value individuals around them who can see straight through their petty games.

I invite you to make your own choice as to which route you would rather take.

As a related aside, I recently came across a short online questionnaire that evaluates for dark triad personality traits. At the end of the survey, each one of the three traits is given a score out of a maximum of 4, whilst you are also shown a figure indicating the percentile of other responders that you scored higher than. I’d advise to ignore this percentile score, since many people answer these surveys dishonestly, and just look at the figure out of 4 instead.

Find it here.

For reference, my own scores were as follows:
– Narcissism: 3.3
– Psychopathy: 2.8
– Machiavellianism: 2.6

One thing of note about the trait of narcissism – someone of extremely high self-esteem, who has made numerous, demonstrable notable achievements in their life, will usually get a high score in the narcissism category. Perhaps it is the characteristics of a narcissistic personality which compel individuals to push themselves to the greatest levels of achievement for their own personal glory.

Post your scores up in the comment section for interest, or just keep them to yourself if you prefer.


Easy, compared to trading

What separates the losers from the winners in life? You may think it is talent, or luck, or being born with a silver spoon in your mouth. Indeed, those are all contributory factors, but far from the most important one.

The single characteristic which will determine more than any other whether you end up on the scrap heap of life, or sipping champagne on the super yacht of existence, is resolve, or raw determination to succeed.

Almost nobody travelled a smooth path from broke loser to wealthy playboy – and there’s a good argument to be made that those who did would be ill-equipped to handle it when things started to go wrong through weakness of character. Nearly everyone who has succeeded and reached the top of the pile has done so through grit, drive and motivation.

You can only fail at something when you accept failure as an outcome. All it takes is to reframe what could be perceived as failure into “simply haven’t succeeded yet” and you’ll find yourself almost welcoming setbacks. Each time you fall short, you learn something about yourself, and learn what to avoid next time after you’ve picked yourself up.

I was fortunate enough to be born with a high IQ. I was intellectually head and shoulders above the rest of my class at school, when I could be bothered to apply myself, and I followed a relatively smooth career path from being a junior developer on a starting salary of $25,000 into a IT contractor working at an investment bank on the equivalent of $250,000 per annum within the space of 7 years. Generally, everything I turned my hand to, I was able to master in a relatively short space of time.

That was, until I decided to quit out of work and devote myself full time to learning to trade. When I started on this journey, I had it in mind that it would take me a few months at most to become proficient, before the money started rolling in. Never mind that trading generally attracts the most intelligent amongst the population, and that of those over 95% lose all their money, and of those 5% that succeed, the general length of time quoted to become consistently profitable is in the region of 5 years. Never mind all that, I was going to pick it up and run with it in a few months, because that was what I always did.

Except it didn’t quite work out that way. At first, it was like running headlong into a brick wall. I would sit all day, staring at the charts before me, wondering why the hell the price was moving around in the way it was. Why did it turn there? Why did it suddenly surge? Maybe if I add these technical indicators to my chart which draw squiggly lines all over it, that will help. It didn’t.

After initially beginning to hemorrhage my pot of cash which was to see me through the learning process, I realised I needed to switch on to a demo account before it was too late. Week after week went by, with one demo account after another blown. I began to question whether I’d ever be able to do it, and subsequently began to question even myself at a fundamental level. This was uncharted territory for me. I began to dread waking up in the morning, to turn the computer on, and to sit there failing all day at something to which I’d decided to devote myself, the thing which was to provide me with my lifestyle of untold wealth. They were dark days. My self-confidence dropped, my mood was poor, and I even began to skip gym sessions, and put on weight. It was totally unfamiliar territory. Why wasn’t I able to succeed? What was wrong with me? Perhaps I was not who I thought I was.

The thing was, no matter how bad things got, I never lost my resolve. I didn’t care how long it took, how depressed I became in the process. I would sit at that fucking computer, day in, day out, even if it took me 5 years, and I had to go back to work again several times to earn more cash. Failure was not even a concept which I would entertain. Each day became a battle against my own mind, which was just telling me to take the week off, go do something else. In response, I worked even harder. There was a period of several months where I was putting in 14 hours a day in front of the PC, and even working through the weekends. I became a hermit, with dishevelled appearance and social interactions reduced to grunting at the 55 year old woman behind the checkout at the supermarket.

Piece by piece, things began to fall into place. The rate at which I was blowing up demo accounts began to slow. Some days, I didn’t even lose any money. Very occasionally, I even made money. Gradually, the tide was stemmed. I went a whole week without losing any money from my account. I had a profitable week. I strung profitable days back to back. I then added 50% to my demo account in the space of 2 weeks.

And this is where I find myself now. Certainly not an expert, but now sufficiently accomplished to know it’s time to go back to real money, and show myself, and everyone else who I told that I could do this, that I’m capable of getting stinking rich, very quickly.

In truth, it’s only taken me just over 6 months of full time study to get to this point, which I can’t really complain about. It’s a fraction of the time that many people take. If someone told you that you could go back to college for a year or two, with no cash, but at the end of it you’d get a $1mil/year job, you’d probably give it a shot. Finding the right information at the right time, combined with sheer bloody-mindedness saw me through the worst of it. The dark days are behind me, my self-confidence is restored, I’m back into the gym 6 days a week, and life is definitely on the up.

I shouldn’t get ahead of myself, but it’s hard not to dream. I ran some quick sums – assuming 20 trading days in a month, and a daily account gain of 10%, it is possible in 4 months to compound $1,000 into… just over $2,000,000. I kid you not. 10% daily isn’t really in any way ridiculous either. All it requires is a successful trade at 4% risk where you make 2.5 times your stop. I’ve done it many times already on my demo account. A number of the people whose writing helped me on a forum can add 100% to their accounts in a single day with good conditions.

Touch wood, I will be able to avoid having to go back to work, and very soon, be earning a great deal more than I was when I was last contracting.

Remember, in order to fail, you have to stop trying and give up. If you don’t do that, you’ll never fail, and then by default the only other option remaining is success, no matter how long it takes you to get there. You just have to want it badly enough.

If all goes to plan, by some point before the end of next year, I’ll put up a post of me looking smug stood by my Ferrari. And if not, then I hold myself open to ridicule for shooting my mouth off. But even if it takes another year, or another after that, I’ll get there. Any other outcome is simply unthinkable.

I’ll put up another trading post soon. I’ve not added anything since the first, simply because the way in which I trade and the concepts I’ve been trying to understand have been too nebulous until now, and I’d have been spouting shit more than likely. The concept of Supply & Demand however still remains the most fundamentally important lesson you need to learn.

Keep positive, keep dreaming big, and keep working towards it.

Trading Series Part I – Supply & Demand

Why Does Price Move?

Supply & Demand

Have you ever looked at a chart, and seen the price suddenly fly up or down from a level and sat there scratching your head as to why? I’ll attempt to explain.

The single most important concept you can learn as a trader, and the one most often overlooked by amateurs, is that of Supply & Demand. The Forex markets, as indeed any market, or economic activity, in its most basic form, can simply be thought of as a bunch of people wanting to buy, and a bunch of people wanting to sell. Behind the scenes at the brokers there is an order book, which contains all of the buy and sell orders waiting to be filled at various price levels.

At any given price level, if there are more buyers than sellers, the price will rise. If there are more sellers than buyers, the price will fall. If there are a roughly equal amount of buyers and sellers, the price will fluctuate back and forth in a small range until one wins out. The range of imbalance of buyers to sellers at any given point will dictate how quickly the price moves.

Consider why it is that the large investment banks make all the profit. These guys have £100s of millions to play with. When they place orders on the books, they’re weighing in with some serious cash. If there is a buy order worth £100 million at a certain price level, what do you think is going to happen when the price reaches that point? Even if all of the amateur traders combined are selling into that level, it’s not even going to make a dent. The price will hit that level, and fly off it upward, under the enormous buying pressure.

How many time yourself have you seen price shooting upwards or downwards, and thought “I’ll have a piece of that”, jumped on it, only to see it then immediately reverse, stopping you out in the blink of an eye? Chances are, you missed 90% of the movement, and have just bought or sold into an institutional bank’s massive order level. You never stood a chance. The key is to recognise areas of Supply & Demand in advance, and be ready to pounce when the price approaches them.

A guy called Sam Seiden introduces the concept extremely well. It is imperative that you watch his introductory video to the concept and understand it before you move on with reading anything else. Until you understand Supply & Demand, and how it makes the price move in the markets, you’re going to be losing your cash more often than not. The video is linked here.

Sam Seiden – Supply & Demand Basics

Great, you think, but how does this help me? How am I supposed to identify these levels on my chart? Sam briefly covers ways to do it, but to be honest, I find his explanations extremely lacking. There are much easier ways to identify levels of Supply & Demand on your charts, which I will cover in a subsequent post.

For now, go and do some more reading around the topic, and familiarise yourself with it. It’s going to be the most important tool in your kit in your future career as a trader.


Stay Tuned – Trading Series Coming Soon

After an overwhelming (by the standards of this blog!) response, it seems that there is a lot of interest out there for a series of posts on trading.

I can’t promise exactly when they’ll be delivered, since it largely depends on my mood – if I’ve had a good day, I feel like king of the world, ready to impart some knowledge. If I’ve had a bad day, all I want to do is go and seethe quietly in a corner, berating myself for my own idiocy. I’ve actually slapped myself in the face a few times for making bad decisions. I also need to ensure things are laid out in a clear, concise manner, since I don’t want to put up some aimless, confusing posts.

You’ve got to remember, your worst enemy in trading is your own brain. You will be controlled by the two most prominent emotions when facing the markets, fear and greed. Fear will make you avoid hitting the button on a trade which then turns into a massive winner. Fear will also make you bottle out of a trade too soon, which has a long way left to run. Greed will make you go in on bad trades, without waiting for a proper setup, which quickly go against you. Greed will make you keep moving your stops further and further out, thinking “it’s going to turn any time, if I just keep moving my stop, it will turn”. And then it doesn’t, and you wipe your account out with a single shitty trade.

Before anything else, you have to get your brain in order. If you are a compulsive gambler, or you’re generally a nervous wreck, then sorry – trading isn’t for you right now. Go away and work on your issues, and come back when you’re a little more together. If you put someone with personality issues in front of the markets with a pile of money to burn, then you probably don’t need me to tell you what’s going to happen.

I can give you all the technical knowledge in the world, but it won’t mean anything if you can’t trust yourself to apply it. I’m still battling my own brain at this point, and I’m slowly managing to get my more reckless impulses under control. My main problem is actually overconfidence, backing my own (sometimes flawed) judgement far too strongly.

I’ve had to set up a huge warning screen that flashes up when I’m about to place an order, with a list of rules on it. If the bet doesn’t satisfy the rules, I don’t go in. I read once of a trader who every time he broke one of his rules, went and jumped in the swimming pool out the back of his house. He quickly conditioned himself out of the habit!

Ok, that’s enough rambling for now. The topics I will be addressing (at present, this might change) will be: (edit – already thought of a couple more things)

  • Supply & Demand
  • How to Identify Levels of Supply & Demand on Charts
  • Price Action
  • Channels
  • What Type of Trader Are You?
  • Putting It Together – Spotting Entry Points, Setting Reasonable Targets
  • How to Keep Yourself In a Trade
  • Economic Events
  • Money Management – How to Protect Your Capital


Who’s Interested In Trading?

Stock Chart

It’s not nearly this cool

So I’ve had little to write about recently, having essentially internalised the mindset of a confident high value man over the last 12 months to the extent that I’m not even aware of it any more (and indeed in doing so, have become one) . I could probably articulate it if I tried, but it’s already been done to death, and I don’t really have the inclination.

My days are entirely filled with working out, sleeping, eating, and trading. Eat, sleep, gym, trade, repeat. It sounds potentially dull, but I find it to be both physically and intellectually stimulating. The stock markets (or forex markets in my case) are endlessly fascinating. As you notice yourself improving incrementally, day by day, you almost start to enjoy yourself (almost…).

It is however a total minefield of second, third and fourth-rate information out there on the internet. So much awful advice. I was fortunate enough to only stumble around in the dark for a few months, before I came across the correct fundamental approach to the whole beast. Many people take years to find their way, and most never make it at all.

Who’d be interested in a small series of posts about the fundamentals of trading forex? I feel I’m at a sufficiently advanced point in my education now to impart a bit of wisdom, even if I’m not yet raking in the cash myself.

There are about 3 or 4 key concepts which I use to trade, which are serving me well. Additionally, writing about it will help to crystallise things in my head at this early, somewhat nebulous stage in my “career”.

Drop me a comment if you’d like me to write about it, otherwise radio silence will most likely be maintained!


Why I Deactivated My Twitter Account

Social Media Overload

Not as handsome as me, but you get the idea

When I first joined Twitter, I used it as something of a micro blog. I would tweet thoughts and ideas as they occurred to me as a result of conversations I was having with people, or situations that arose as I went about my day to day life. I was a net producer of value, usually just opening the app, posting my tweet, and then closing it again.

However, since quitting my job and having a lot more “spare” time during the day where I’m just sat around in front of the PC (there’s only so long you can spend at the gym), ostensibly studying charts and trading strategies, I found that I had less and less to contribute, and had fallen into a habit of scouring through pages of the tweets of others, looking for something I could comment on. I had gone from a net producer of value to a net consumer. I was reacting to the thoughts and ideas of others instead of giving my own.

Over time, I developed a habit to reflexively check twitter every 10 minutes. Without even realising, at any given point I would snatch my phone from my pocket and refresh the list of tweets before my conscious mind even knew what I was doing. It became a massive distraction, and was having a deleterious effect on my concentration and overall state of mind.

For this reason, I deactivated my account so that I could “unpollute” my mind and focus back in on the task at hand. Since I’ve done so, I’ve found my general mood much more positive, and the creative juices have started flowing once more. Initially, I still kept pulling my phone out of my pocket on reflex to check my tweets, before I realised there was nothing to check. The frequency of this has now almost decreased to zero, as I have de-trained my brain from the habit. Ironically (or more like as a direct consequence), I’ve thought of about 100 things to tweet in the last few days, none of which I’ve been able to.

I’ll probably log back into my account before the 30 day period after which it becomes deleted permanently, and unfollow most of the people I was following, since I still like the idea of using it as a sounding board for my thoughts which aren’t worth writing full blog posts about. I’ve made some good friends in the manosphere, and it’s really nothing personal, but I have other means to keep in touch with those people.

Try to make an objective assessment whether your social media interactions are actually a net positive on your life, or a hindrance to your creativity.



You want this?

What are your ultimate goals from life?

It’s easy to reflexively say “A Ferrai, a mansion, millions of pounds” – but do you really mean that? What are you willing to put yourself through to get there? What hardships will you endure? How many setbacks are you willing to pick yourself up from? Do you really believe you can do it, deep down in your core? Are you prepared to risk total failure?

The higher you aim, the more likely you are to miss, and have to face up to the fact that you simply weren’t good enough. No more pretty lies. Can you do that? Can you still try again in the face of crushing despair? Or will you just reach a level of competency, somewhat above average, and just stay there, unwilling to risk what is needed? We go in far in life as we believe we deserve, and that we feel we are capable of.

Personally, I’ve always had ambition to achieve the greatest things, true top 0.01% success. But I never actually did anything about it, consoling myself with “Well, I could do it if I want.” School came easy, I was top of the class without ever having to apply myself. I coasted through my 20s, wasting years on video games and weed. Living in the comparatively impoverished north of England, I easily outranked all of my peers in earning power. And then I turned 30, moved to London, and realised I was in fact a worm.

A Worm


I was surrounded by rich and successful people, who actually had what I’d always assumed I’d get – and yet despite working my way up to a highly paid job, I was still in reality nowhere closer to achieving.

All the ambition in the world won’t get you anywhere without the burning drive to make it happen, and the willingness to risk your ego – that part of yourself that tells you what a fucking awesome man you are simply because you’re just above average. You need to cultivate a healthy sense of entitlement. You need to believe that you deserve ultimate success as your birthright. Anything short of total fulfilment of your loftiest goals will then literally disgust you, and seem a burning failure.

As I’ve learned over the last couple of years – it’s not for most. Most people prefer not to push themselves too far, in case they find out they’re not actually capable of getting there. Ego preservation. There isn’t enough room at the top for everyone, and if you ultimately fail, you can no longer rationalise it away to yourself, saying  “I could have if I wanted to.” You tried, and you failed. Who wants to risk that? Not many.

You will have to endure hardship. How much can you put yourself through to realise your aims? Let’s put it like this. I’ve recently moved back home with the folks to save cash. I voluntarily walked out of a job that paid me $250,000/year in London because it wasn’t good enough. To put that in perspective, I could have been a millionaire in 5 years whilst still having $50k a year to spend. And that’s not even as far up the career ladder as I could have gone in my profession. I could have doubled that salary within a year or two. I’ve taken myself from living in one of the premier capitals in the world, eating at Michelin starred restaurants, living in a $3,000,000 apartment – to sitting on my own in a tiny pisspot village in the north of England, no social life to speak of, no money coming in, living on a budget, all in order so that I can learn to become a successful trader. Why? Because I can earn tens of millions through trading, the kind of money that it would have taken me decades to amass, all whilst living completely on my own terms as a man, and not having to work underneath some dickhead and kiss corporate ass. My ambition is such that without a second thought, I walked out of what 99% could never even dream of achieving. Short term pain for long term gain.


This is somewhat dramatic. But you get the point.

How many people in this part of the internet have ever earned that much money? And of those, how many do you think would be willing to just walk out of it? Or would instead they just sit around stroking their ego boners, like they do with everything else, covering their insecurities? “I’m so alpha, check out my money faggots”.

I won’t be content with what everyone else has. I know I deserve better. So I have to take steps to get there that normal people aren’t willing to take. Remember – if you do what everyone does, you’ll get what everyone else has got – which is fuck all.

If you really want to do this, then don’t forget – failure is just a mindset. You actually can’t fail if you refuse to accept failure as a valid outcome. You either succeed, or you die trying. Do you want be the man who can look himself in the eye in the mirror and know he is trying everything he can to achieve his biggest dreams? Or do you want to be the man who looks at himself, shouts “you’re the man!” because he shagged a few 7s and earns above national average wage, ignoring the little voice inside his head telling him he’s lying to himself? You decide. But don’t come and try to pretend to me that you’re living the life you really want to if you pick the latter option. I can see straight through your hollow “masculine language” and proclamations of “alphaness” in a nanosecond.

I’ve come to realise over the past year or so of blogging that even amongst this part of the internet, 95% of people don’t actually want to genuinely achieve real success. They’re content with just being able to pick up a few women, get a couple of muscles, and tell themselves how great they are, because they don’t want to risk their fragile little egos by failing. I’ve explained almost every detail of what is required to have a successful mindset in various posts, in order to actually achieve true success in life, and every time I write, I can just hear the whooshing noise as it goes over nearly everyone’s heads.

To those of you who appreciate what I write – thank you, and I hope it helps you in some way. I’ll see you in Monaco on the superyacht.


In case you didn’t know what one looked like

To the rest of you – enjoy your life of “a bit better than most”, and I hope when you get to the end of it, you don’t look back and realise you pussied out of going after what you really wanted, because you were afraid to fail.

So where does this leave me now? Time to put up or shut up. I can walk back into a job in London within a week any time I choose. But I’m not going to do that. Earning more than most of the population is utter failure to me. Learning to trade is a process that usually takes years. It attracts the brightest and most ambitious minds in the world, and 5% of the market takes the other 95%’s money – it’s an uphill battle, and I’m aiming to turn it around inside of 6 months. The one circumstance under which I would be prepared to work again is when I am consistently making profit from trading, and I simply need to raise capital to accelerate the process. But even then I probably wouldn’t- I have several wealthy friends who are willing to invest in me.

I’m also deactivating my Twitter account, as it’s becoming an unwelcome distraction. Those friends I have made have other ways to get in touch, and I can always be reached on email here. It’s like bad soap opera these days, and I simply can’t take anything from it any more. You have to surround yourself with like-minded people to get to where you want to go, and I can’t find many where I’m looking currently. MattC hit the nail on the head with his post Power and Status last year.

I’ll still continue to blog now and again, detailing more elements of what is takes to get to where you want to go in life for those who are interested. Discipline. Mastery of the mind. Destroying insecurity. How to tackle a goal piece by piece.

Ciao for now.